"All those posts about fortitude and endurance....perseverance...shine brightly in my mind..."
I miss writing. I miss the therapeutic aspect that just comes from sitting down with nothing but quiet, thoughts, and space. I miss the humor and irony that words seem to expose about life. For us, this season in life is deeply intense...excavation of heart, mind and soul. All those posts about fortitude and endurance....perseverance...shine brightly in my mind as the weight of school, wife, mom, kids...and business building...and web designing...and on and on...all press in at the same time. I've never considered myself good at time management....however, when we emerge from this season I'm just pretty sure I can write entire BOOKS on the subject. To go from now to the vision that lies so deeply within is not to be taken lightly, nor is it a laughing matter.
"There MUST be a creative outlet some where, at some point"
But I have passion, I have a vision, and I have a longing to help others. I know what it is to seemingly lose my identity in the chaos of life and kids and people. I know intimately that feeling of only existing for everyone except me. I find myself lost in the selflessness that is continually demanded and begin to think that ANYTHING seemingly self indulgent is wrong. But I know now that self care is absolutely mandatory. There MUST be a creative outlet some where, at some point. Otherwise my brain would explode. I am learning what it is to be the girl who lived before all the world TOLD her who to be. Because when you feel good...truly good on every level - about yourself, your overall quality of life, your time management, your personal vision, your own purpose, your physical body, your overall sense of self....you do good. You become a better wife, a better mom. You're so much more inclined to go out and TRULY do good for others. In giving up a lifestyle of self-imposed martyrdom that seems to run rampant throughout everything I was ever taught, I have found life and freedom and laughter....purpose, passion, vision...that live together on the other side...where all the people dance.
"I'm learning to live..."
By uncovering and overcoming fear...fear of unkept promises to self, failure, falling short, rejection, and all the things that hinder moving forward in unbridled confidence...I'm learning to live entirely independently, and pursue EVERYTHING I've set out to learn and do before I leave this earth. There is still lots, and lots...and LOTS...of deep work still left to be done within me. That's to say nothing of the sheer physical aspect of carrying a school load (3 different courses of online study) along with the rest of life. Intense is about the only word that comes to mind.
"My home lies buried in the rural recesses of the West..."
It never fails, however, during this holiday season, that my heart grows homesick. As much as I love Autumn in the East, the bottom line is that I was born and bred in Texas and a Texan I will forever be (If you're not from Texas this will be a difficult concept to grasp). My home lies buried in the rural recesses of the West; not in the over populated, claustrophobic regions of the East. While we have our own little slice of land and space here...it's just not home...nor will it ever be home. My brother waits for us in Austin. My mom still sheds tears over our absence. My dad waits eagerly for the day we return. And my heart....my heart just longs for wide open spaces, west Texas storms, huge Texas moons, lone Texas highways, Milky Way woven like silk ribbon through huge night sky, hatted cowboys, booted ranchers, big diesel trucks filling up the feed store parking lot, tiny Texas towns, kind hearted people, slower pace of life, and space. So, while we are here in this place now we also know it is not something that will last forever. That sentiment, however, does nothing to comfort my homesick heart. It still just wants to go home.
"Back to the freedom of wide open west Texas prairies"
So, as we pursue so much more...things that were birthed in our head and heart years ago...we know that one day this road will lead us home. Back to the freedom of wide open west Texas prairies. A place where homesteading is hard, rain is scarce, gardens struggle, and sun drenched lands are forever scorched.
"I can say with absolute certainty that we would not be the people we are now, nor have accomplished all that we have, had we not ventured down the eastern path."
For now, though, I've found North Carolina to be a place of magnificent beauty...trees and leaves, hills and valleys, rain and growth, canopies of green, whispering pines, and leaves that dance earthward in seemingly mystical ways come Fall. It is something for which I am entirely grateful during this season. I try to soak it in on every level because I know this time in life shall pass. I appreciate this state, our small circle that has become family, and the beauty of it all.....all the growth that has occurred as a result of our move east. I can say with absolute certainty that we would not be the people we are now, nor have accomplished all that we have, had we not ventured down the eastern path. But my heart is ready to go home.
"Life and love and laughter."
There is still much left untold....3 months of quiet leaves lots of catching up to do. And this is not even close to all the pictures that have been taken over the course of late summer to present. But it is still a bit of a sampling of all we have done while we have seemed to disappear from the blogging world. An entire season of football, beach trip, school, travel, and more. Happiness, contentedness, busyness. Life and love and laughter.
If you would like to keep up with us more regularly than what blogging provides right now we can be found here on Facebook. Changes are slow...but they are coming! Progress is a beautiful thing.
Life with the crew of them. Because nothing will make you smile like hearing them all come to life, talk and laugh. This was uploaded to facebook but due to technical difficulties encountered was shortly removed. So....trying again here.
Because...really...who can resist? For all the gawkers, starers, and those who I KNOW never make it to 12 before the light turns green....we saved them the trouble. And yes....Cageside and Toro stickers will be moved to top left and top right to even out the whole thing a bit.
When the highly anticipated event of the day finally takes place. Watching the new arrival unload.
Playing around while big brother works. Much to his credit, truck that has sat silent for two entire years was running by the end of the day. Not bad for a 16 yr old kid that is self taught and has become a YouTube and Google expert. Schooling for the real world.
Singing her heart out. She's a little uninhibited.
Laying it out for the spring planting.
Richmond road trip with everybody. Lots more pics of this to be uploaded at a later date.
Hanging out while siblings roll.
Sweet downtime at home. We are on the move so much these days that moments like this are just pretty sweet. This girl's story is pretty amazing and one that will be told soon. An inspiration, a role model, and a half marathoner.
Daddy's refusal to change a diaper. Even after 12...he still dons the SCBA mask to take on this task....and still gags. Every. Single. Time. Makes me laugh.
Lots and lots of our many hours spent at football practice.
Boys day out with mama and daddy, waitin' around for the big guys to finish.
Absolutely saddened and mesmerized by the slaying of our beloved forest. Naked babies escaped from bathtub to see what all the noise was about. Nice.
Exact same spot. The after...and still going. You can see the remnant that remains of the trail.
The sad, sad wasteland now lying behind our house. At this point they still weren't done. All the trees, pictured came down too. To own as much land as you need to in this state to preserve the land is almost impossible. There are no such things as 20,000 acre ranches here. You own...or rent...your 5 acres and are at the mercy of whatever neighbor you have for what surrounds you. Oh well. We met the owner out of the deal, he seemed to really like kids, we gathered enough firewood for the stove to last 20 winters, and the kids now play on the downed barren trees.
I think the man has an addiction.
Everybody needs a dog.
More football.
Between football and US Grappling I think it's safe to say we've broken in every playground on the southeastern half of the east coast.
Lots and lots of road trippin'.
You'd think they never get out in public.
Nothin' like muddin', diggin' up worms, lizards, frogs, and livin' the good life while you work.
Her first ponytail! Finally enough hair! A day to celebrate.
When it's your turn to drive.
We have an entire 5 acres and they all gather on about 1/4 acre of it. Gives a new meaning to family unity. Football, chase, mowing, amazing weather, autumn days,...and a naked kid (always with the naked kid...SMH). Life is good.
When all the world goes ablaze in the east.
There is a certain element of euphoria that takes places when your pasture is finally mowed.
Since I never really see it from the outside looking in I never fully understood the amount of stares and the curiosity that takes place when we're seen on the road. However....once husband and I saw this...it just made us laugh. Is it a school? Is it a church group? Is it a daycare???? WHAT is it???? Insanity....that's what.
About the only time she is ever still enough to get a pic that is actually NOT blurry.
Why an 8 y/o boy is never.....ever.....never ever....allowed to dress himself and be released from the house by his father. Needless to say, we went straight to the clothing section and he got some new jeans and a few new shirts out of the deal....along with some new camo boots.....cause, you know....he just really LOVES camo. He is now being schooled in fashion by his loving sisters. And yes, he also got a haircut in the deal too. Kinda like a mini kid makeover! Maybe your mom is a little tied up and has a lot on her plate when it gets to these lengths. Poor kid. I maintain that there is hope for him yet! :)
The reality of an efficiency apartment sized kitchen and meal prep work taking place.
Oh look, a cute baby contest winner.
Ole Blue. The sight of it arriving.
No cavities...and a whole lot of dentist office absolutely in love with her.
The freak show in action. It is still surreal and the novelty just never wears off that after two entire years of the complete inability to go anywhere as a family.....this is now our reality. Sam's trips, stopping by to see on shift daddy, road trips, and grocery shopping together once more.
Dentist day with these 5. Second 5 went the following day.
So maybe red headed wild man didn't warm up to the dentist so well last time around. Not even as much as eye contact. His twin didn't seem to mind much at all, in fact, looked as though he was rather enjoying this luxurious experience.
6 months later....success! Brave little man even sporting a smile about it. Peaceful parenting gently reaps entire benefits that a heavy hand will never achieve. And if results are achieved under a heavy hand was it really worth the tears, the heartache, the fight, and the loss of their heart in the deal....not to mention an absolute horror instilled to ever revisit the place???? All the many things learned along the way of parenting a crazy amount of kids. Some of the stuff I read, some of the stuff I see taking place...just makes a heart sad. A little bit of love, a little bit of compassion, seeing the world through their eyes, a little bit of patience, and a WHOLE lot of learning to pick my battles. He walked away with a goodie bag of his own toothbrush and floss, a bouncy ball, and a very excited, VERY proud phone call to daddy.
Lunch date.
When the 5 yr old is singled out to show the entire class correct form for push ups.
Go Ivye!
Family appearance for October's fire prevention/awareness event.
Do you have a rehearsed plan of escape?
Are all of your smoke alarms in working order?
Are all of your escape windows in working order?
If you have a multiple level house are there emergency escape ladders from each room to get down, such as these available in 2 and 3 story lengths?
Do your children know how to hook and use the ladder appropriately?
Do you conduct rehearsed fire drills with your family?
A simple once a month fire drill with your kids, acquainting them with the sound of your smoke alarm, implementing a family plan, and teaching them to carry it out can absolutely be the difference between life and death for one or all of your children. "It'll never be me" can very much indeed happen to you.
Missing one that was in Greensboro to see best friend compete in dance competition. Junebug baby can't seem to figure out where she is in the birth order line up...not to mention standing STILL...for even a second.
When they've grown up at a fire station this might be where you find your kids while the rest of the world stands and admires, the big trucks, big lights, big ladders, and a ton of different apparatus.
Some big brother love going on. She loves her Grayson.
Best of friends.
Ponytail!
Buddy love.
The view while I study. Pretty sure he's the offspring of Tarzan.
When you have a twin you just have a built in buddy all the time.
More road trippin'.
When he's just not so little anymore.
Maybe you need a new on-the-go oil bag when your on-the-go oils exceed zipper capacity. Ginger currently sitting in cup holder of van. You might have an addiction or be a bit of a fanatic when you apply AromaTouch and Deep Blue to gas station dude's back....yep, I really did that.....and oil up the crying, inconsolable baby with the embarrassed, exasperated mom at the dentist. But hey....it worked!
Learning early.
And FINALLY.....what has been worked on and taken place behind the scenes as we have gone quiet on here for awhile....a portion of the new website to come is FINALLY launched. All blogging will continue to remain here on this original site until new main website is launched. But, for now, a small taste of all that is to come! Be sure to check out the uses and oil tabs. Still a work in progress as I work more on it...but....it is up and running! There is a little bit for everybody from green cleaning, to family health, boosting immunity, infant care, those in an office space, and even sports and fitness. Eventually there will be information pertaining specifically to jiu jitsu, pregnancy, birth and beyond, and topics very near and dear to our heart as a family.
Also, be sure and check out the fun and quick EmoVite survey to determine which oil you would benefit from for emotional balance and wellbeing. As we have eliminated the daily toxic load in chemical laden products along with taking our EO use and knowledge to greater heights over the period of the past year I have discovered we rarely are ever sick anymore....and that is coming after two entire years spent in Urgent care and at the family dr where our kids were known by name. Our uses for EO's have turned to maintaining health but also much more focused on the solutions they provide emotionally. My story will someday be told is its entirety. Until then....be sure and take the survey/quiz and see how you can also benefit from oils on an emotional level as well. Their uses and reach far extend that of just physical health and are highly effective in addressing emotional wellbeing also. Click any of the pics to check out the new site! Eventually there will be EO101 classes available to view at your convenience concerning topics of family wellness, pregnancy, birth and beyond, weight management, animal care, cooking with EO's, and diffusing. Video tutorials and kids teaching kids how to manage their health, learning early that we are not victims of a broken health system, etc.
Concerning the site...within the past year I have now had the honor and ability to of helping others address issues as major as fibromyalgia, PCOS, endometriosis, infertility, Celiac, Crohn's, thyroid imbalance, psoriasis, severe eczema, weight management, anxiety, and other health concerns by implementing dietary changes, whole nutrition, gentle fitness, supplements, and EO's. If you have suffered with these or have people close to you that are, my new site is a wealth of info about EO's in general. Upcoming site will include more of the other side of it all including health coaching services, nutrition, and whole lifestyle wellness that is absolutely integral in seeing results, feeling better, and beginning the cycle of positive change both mentally and physically. Click any pic below to be redirected to new site!
For an even deeper look into specific health concerns, I highly recommend checking out the Everything Essential site. Most area of specific concern and EO protocols can be found by clicking the "Health Concern" tab and scrolling through alphabetically. I will stress that I am not a dr or licensed care practitioner. Eo's alone cannot cure or heal. It takes a whole health lifestyle approach to achieve success in these areas. However, essential oils can be an amazing and powerful tool in helping address each area of concern. I can be contacted easily by email or Facebook private message to discuss any of this in further detail or help you begin to implement positive change within your own life.
Email: medicinemansgrl@yahoo.com
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