I'm in the mood to blog...yes, it's a mood....but the time to spend any real effort on it does not currently exist. So, once again I fully intend to cheat and crap out with this excuse of a filler. But, it's fun and kind of addicting, though it has no real deep meaning. One certainly will not walk away from this in a deeper relationship with the Lord, a better homeschooling parent, a better parent at all, really, or be any wiser in life. I'm quite certain we'll all be better people after I post this.
Outside my window....wind through the trees. Soft wind mimics sounds of waves lapping the golden shores of Hawaii. Oneday husband and I will listen to that sound together and sit wrapped up in each other's arms for hours on end.
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I am thinking......that every person in the United States should watch "The Business of Being Born".
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I am thankful for.....
sleeping children, bubble baths, vanilla cupcake body wash and spray, girly shaving gel, new razors, a shimmering golden bottled tan, and a bottle of wine. Quiet darkness with my 4 little flickering votive candles playfully bringing bubbles to life as they dance on hot water. The absolute loyalty of the dog laying on the bathmat. Open window, summer night breeze on wet, exposed skin, sound of wind through trees. The simple indulgence of life.
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I am wearing.....
a white tank top, pink pajama pants....and pink toenails.
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I am hearing.....
"The Mission" soundtrack by Ennio Morricone and "Out of Africa" soundtrack by John Barry
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I am remembering.....yesterday afternoon.
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I am going.....to rise before the sun and go run in the cool of the morning. And I am going to get to run once again with my husband next week. My running buddy, my partner, my motivation to push farther and harder than I ever do alone. And I am finally going to get to P90X again since studying husband will no longer spend every waking hour of the day secluded within the playroom in which I use to P90.
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I am reading....."Heaven is for Real" by Todd Burpo
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I am hoping....and fervently praying that Brad will place 1st overall as he finally takes the Lt's test this Friday after months upon months upon months of being away and spending time buried in books. 5 months of diligent studying away from the family as he has worked two jobs and poured his heart and soul into what it takes to pass this test and place 1st over 35 other firefighters. We went through this last year also and he scored highest on the test but due to being a civil service dept and the guys getting 1 seniority point for each year on the dept the guy that scored 5 points lower on the test scored higher overall, taking the place of 1st. Brad scored a 93 on the test and had 5 seniority points to his name. Other dude scored an 89 and had 10 seniority points, scoring Brad with a 98 and other dude with a 99. Only 1st place promoted this past year. Praying so fervently and desperately that this will be the last year we ever do this and that there will be great reward for all of his diligence, selflessness and determination as he has focused so intently on what it takes to accomplish this massive feat in life. Praying that once May 20th is over we can finally resume some sense of normalcy again.
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On my mind....that I am feeling overwhelmingly sentimental as I watch my children grow. That this 5'5 man child that sleeps down the hall was my roly poly, bowling ball headed baby but just a short while ago. That he was my 4 year old out dancing and bringing all of Billy Bob's to a roar as he tore up the dance floor. And he now stands almost as tall as me, that his features are changing, his look more masculine and losing the signs of any little boy left, his voice deepening. The heart wrenching transition as he leaves the little boy behind. And I wonder where it went. If I used all of my days wisely with him. If I captured as much of the time as I could...because 13 years goes by so fast and it sifted through fingers like sand. I naively thought 13 years was forever as I stared into his newborn face....but 13 years was only tomorrow. And I know these babies are that close to being grown. So I hold them, I smell them and I savor everything about them. I hug my children close and I laugh with them and dance with them and sing with them and I listen to what they all say.....because I know I only have a little bit more time. I wish that I could just make time tick a little slower....pause the incessant, merciless ticking and unrelenting pace of the pendulum. In the moment, in the chaos, 13 years seems like forever, but when looking back it was only but a heartbeat.
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Noticing that....it is an absolutely amazing thing to watch children 2, 3 and barely 5 years old quote Scripture and have the ability to retain entire chapters of the Bible. What a delight it is to watch 3 year old Gavin recite entire passages of Scripture as he laughs and plays and it is made real to him in his everyday little life. There honestly is no greater joy than to know that our children walk in truth. To see that the Lord is using them at such early ages as vessels He can pour through as He raises them up to their fullest potential. Oh, that they would know who he is at such an early age, learn the sound of His voice, heed his urgings and rise up to be the righteous people that we study and pour over each morning. I pray that they will never come to accept or become content with mediocrity, apathy and an average state of existence. I pray that they will push forward until they find the key of life and live exercising the wisdom of Proverbs. That their spirits and young hearts will house a fire that only the Lord can ignite and one that they will act upon in reckless abandon.
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Pondering these words....
Ivye..."I have a hade ache, mama."
Grant..."Ivye, you only have a headache cause you ate too much sugar since you ate the whole box of cookies!!!"
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Grant griping in a very whiny voice about it being a school day: "Oh....I hate it being a school day. I have to get dressed. I have to clean up. I have to brush my teeth. I have to do chores. I have to read. I have to eat." After a long pause suddenly a light bulb seems to go off and he continues on in total sincerity and great excitement, "Wait!! I love to eat!! It's a school day...I get to eat!!!! Maybe I do like school days!!"
Contrary to popular belief we do actually feed our children on the weekends.
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Evye: "Mom, do you think the only time Daddy has ever worn a really nice suit was on your wedding day....except for other times too?"
Ummm......Evye????? If anybody's the blond one....it's definitely her.
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From the kitchen....a bottle of wine and Jr Mints
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Around the house.....10 sleeping children, the rhythmic clicking of a ceiling fan, the dog laying on my feet...
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One of my favorite things.....my husband.
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From my picture journal.....
Evenflo Trailtech. We've had one of these since Evye was little. It was such an amazing piece of baby gear that we completely wore our first one out 9 years and 7 babies later. We replaced it with one we found at a resale store last year for a mere 17.00. It's the only way Brad will ever wear a baby. We also love it for outings due to the fact it can stand on its own. It's our all time favorite for eating out with babies that are still too little to sit in restaurant highchairs yet have graduated out of infant seats...or just don't prefer to be in infant seats. And being as cheap as humanly possible I found this 2nd one on Ebay too. As much as I love the Ergos they can get very hot in the summer. This works really well for keeping everybody cool since baby is not laying directly against parent and body heat does not become an issue. We haven't had one baby that's disliked this backpack. And, without fail, everyone stops to comment on it when Brad wears it. All of our crew have loved being piggy backed within it.I won this one for 31.03, which was higher than I anticipated paying for it since our last one was purchased for a mere 17.00. I figure that's still pretty good given the fact they retail new for 79.00. One of my all time favorite pieces of baby gear.
Gavin hitching a ride on daddy's back in San Antonio

Hanging out at the restaurant while we ate

The new one!

